If someone really cares about u, he/she won’t treat you like a garbage can. I realized this after reading my friend’s blog, talking about how she avoids dissipating all the negative emotions to the ones that she cares about the most. She doesn’t want those people to worry about her too much. Of course, I should’ve know that long time ago. Thinking back to the early days when we weren’t that familiar, she indeed injected a lot of her deadly venom into me, and kept showing her pessimism that turned me down like hell. Still, I was stupid enough to actually listen to all those complaints. Haha.
This realization hurts me. It’s quite pathetic to see that there are so many “smart” people. However, this “stupidity” is part of my disposition, and I don’t think it will ever change. I don’t regret being stupid for the past of my life, and I will keep being stupid. It’s not because I want to get hurt, but more like living up to my basic standards of human beings. Just like how 孙小雨 wrote in his journal <天地不仁，以万物为刍狗>:
我们都是同样的渺小的、在温水中没有知觉的青蛙，我们是同类，不存在天地与刍狗的关系。生物只有形成一个群体才能发展的更好。同样的，你应当去寻找你的群体，发展与你同样幸福的青蛙圈子，因为这样，你才能知道，我们的确是在幸福着。
而不是像对待兔子或青蛙一样，去冷眼看待它的死生。
因为我们是，同类。
并不是什么毫无关系。就算是陌生人，同样也是人。
